Blogger hates me right now

Can't post any pics...and I have a good one....my neighbours were "fishing" in the cul de sac yesterday....casting into a kiddie wading pool....

I'm fighting a sore throat/cold thingy...maybe it's a good thing that my friend Michelle is gone for a few days....I'm not going to be talking for hours on end.... :D

Good Morning....

I've been waking up in the early morning hours a lot these days. For someone who has been a night person all her life, this is something odd. And now, I've been up since around six. It's very peaceful, sitting here, listening to the rain...the only other sound I hear is my fingers tapping away on the keys.

It reminds me of a memory that I have from many years ago. At the end of my third year of University, I had a lot of papers due. I prioritized and worked on my major's papers first, ignoring my electives' papers. So, it came down to having to write a paper for my Abnormal Psych class. I started at 9 pm the day before it was due. By 4 am, I was done, and I sat in my apartment, feeling an intense sense of relief and accomplishment. I sat there, drinking my coffee, watching the sun come up. It was such a peaceful moment.

Maybe that's why I keep waking up so early. I think I'm going to make myself some coffee now...maybe read a little. Watch the birds at the bird feeder. Enjoy the moment.

Driving...

Before I start writing what I have planned for this posting, I'd just like to thank all those who have left their kind words of support. You have no idea how much that means to me. I'm going through a rather difficult time, personally, right now, and so my postings may be a little on the melancholy side, but reflection is the only way that I can figure things out. I find it very cathartic to just write. It's funny...I can be an intensely private person, so it may seem strange for people who know me to think that I have a blog...personal writings for anyone to see. But, this is another thing that I've kept private...all who read this have found it pretty much on their own...

I'm reading a book right now that my dear friend Michelle lent me -- Soul Gardening by Terry Hershey. The basic premise of the book is to slow down, and to find peace in the moment. It really helps for those moments when I get so agitated that I want to crawl out of my own skin.

Jumping in the car and going for a long drive has always been a type of therapy for me. Last night, I had to get out of the house, so I went for a very long drive...stereo cranked so loudly that it rattled the outside mirrors. Nothing but me and the highway stretching out in front of me. Driving past the farms out in the country. Driving along West Marine View Drive, watching the sun sink into Possession Sound.

Thanks for listening...

Too hot to do anything....

Anyone who really knows me knows that I do not take heat well. I'm more of an autumn person, with the colours...the smells...the quality of light. Which is strange, when I think of it, because I'm usually running a bit on the cold side, so you'd think that I'd love the summer. And since we're going through a huge heat wave, I haven't been doing much of anything. Well, except taking up my friend Michelle's invitations to go sit in her pool.

I've started writing again. And not just my little observations on the world that I write here. O and I went out and I picked up a little journal, and a bottle of ink for my fountain pen. I love that thing. I used to get the strangest looks when I was in University and taking notes, when I would stop to retrieve the ink bottle from my bag to refill the ink chamber. Slightly messy, but well worth it. It's one of those little indulgences that makes life more interesting and fulfilling.

Still dealing...

I've totally ignored the whole blogging world...haven't read anything...haven't worked on any projects...just living in the moment...

Had the most incredible day with O though...at around 3, I just had to get out of the house. So...we jumped in the SUV and drove. I hit the local Starbucks drive through and grabbed a vanilla latte, and drove to Seattle. It was such a freeing, amazing experience. To just drive, and concentrate on nothing but the smell of my coffee, the sight of my peacefully sleeping child, and the amusing afternoon show on 99.9, KISW. I love going over the hill on I-5 right before the 167 exit...the city is laid out in front of you...it is so surreal to me...I feel chills every time I see it. There's almost too much to take in at once....the sunlight sparkling on Lake Union, with its multitude of marinas, boats, and floatplanes....the downtown skyscrapers reaching up towards the sky....and of course, the Space Needle in the centre of it all....

When I lived in Saskatoon, when I needed to de-stress, I would jump in my car and drive. I loved to drive down Saskatchewan Crescent, which housed some of the most beautiful homes I have ever seen. I loved driving slowly and peering into the interiors of these houses. One house stood out in particular. The house had the most amazing art collection. In the one front room, there hung an exquisite rendering of Adam and Eve in the garden of Eden. Sometimes I want to go back there, and drive down that street, just to see that painting...

One more thing....

If anyone wants to make your own avatar...here's the link...I finally found it again...

http://illustmaker.abi-station.com/index_en.shtml

ACK! Bad Blogger....

...I've been a really bad blogger...not writing...not really reading anything. I'm going through some stuff right now that pretty much is all-consuming, so I don't know if I'll be posting anything for the next little bit...Sorry...

When I get my head more clear, I'll be back to my usual self...

kim